It's Time to Move On..

Talking bout last few days..precisely to say last week..I was damn moody..not because of the problems I faced at my jobplace..nor it was because I failed in my confession..Instead..I purposely went home early that day from office not only because I had a football session..but also to share this great news with my family..which was I got an interview from Shell..well..it was SUPPOSED to be one great thing..in the end it was all ruined up by my mom...
I understand what she concerned of..this job is contractual basis..which means I've got no guarantee to be renewed once the contract is over..and also no guarantee that I will be converted into a permanent staff of Shell..at least I hoped she would allow me for the interview..if i have given up this chance I wouldn't even know whether there's an opportunity for me..even though I turned them down in the end...haha..sometimes I just don't understand why is she insisting me to go for internal transfer..she gives me a feeling that she wants me to follow dad and her footstep..to start and end a career in a banking line..telling everything about how good is a bank..how wide the job scope is in a bank and so on...and so forth..until my dad intervened in our so call conversation..then only I could calm down and listen to his advice...my dad is good at tht kind of situation..haha..
Anyway..I have turned down the opportunity to join Shell because they cant promise a permanent position when my contract's over..I would never wanna find a job again once in a while..it's tiring..and it's quite far actually..plus the expenses thr..is HUGE...one hour parking rate is RM 6..far far far more expensive than pavillion..now it's time to move on..the journey in search for job again..hopefully this time the position they offer will not let me down..well not me..is my mom..haha
Ystd has to one of the most embarrassing days of my life..I actually got drunk at my fren's house not because I keep on dui-ing..but because my body couldn't support alcohol mixing (brandy + beer)..I lost the game..fulfill my punishment...in the end..DRUNK...god damn fish..!! Which is why i avoid whisky brandy all the time...PLS...DUN LET ME TAKE THOSE ANYMORE..haha..hopefully they can see it..
It's been a while since i last updated but I guess it's time to chill again...hohohoho..b seeing u guys soon..sayonara~~~

One hell of an October..

It's been a while baby..i think the gap shud be quite huge from the last post..haha..nvm..it's pretty much common to me though..
This month..as shown (title..)..is really one hell of a month..not in terms of anything..but full of surprises..especially my grandma's departure..it's quite a shocking..three days prior to that..my bro and i visited her at the nursing home..still energetic and sharp as usual..but happened to have flu with her..three days later..when i recovered back from my sickness as well..the first thing i got at office was none other than my mom's call..telling me that grandma passed away peacefully on the bed..it was just ten minutes after i sat down..preparing for work..shocking...a real stunner..regardless of how it was..it's actually a relief for both her n my family..she's released from the suffering all these years..while my parents were discharged from the financial burden..anyhow..may her rest in peace eternally..n look upon us up thr in heaven..
I told my parents my decision..and surprisingly (2nd surprise..)...they never yelled at me..or even scolded me for once..in fact they supported me to leave..it seems my parents understand my situation..and i have never considered that they actually will..!! When i had this conversation with my mom in the toilet..i was kinda scared actually..afraid that she couldn't accept..and blast me with her 'machine-gun'...
Anyway..permission is granted..green light is given..now it's time for a full scale mode in search for jobs..road to HR..!! Hopefully I'll tag along this sector until I retired..haha..but it's hard these days for youngsters to really know what they want..even for myself..I'll try..and I'll do my best..for the sake of my ambition..!!
That's it for this week..time to relax..it's saturday night after all..haha..take gd care everyone..!!

I've decided..

Well well well..this has to be the 1st time in my blogging history that I'm actually typing for it at 7.30 in the morning...haha...not that I wanted to wake up early on Saturdays but I cant sleep past that time..many things have just kept on bothering me..
From the last few posts..it seems that I've made up my mind finally to leave the company..it sounds like a bad excuse but the more I do..the more I couldn't absorb what I was doing all the time..meaning..I don't do my job for the sake of doing..I must absorb some knowledge to improve my understanding of the whole process..but..banking sector might prove to be too difficult for me to adapt to..two months might be too short to conclude but for myself..leaving for a slightly less complicated multinational companies than a bank would help to shape my future..somehow..I just need to think of a way to persuade my parents that I should leave..afterall..if I hadn't accept this job..I would not know what kind of jobs I'm looking for..and how should I find a job..either way..whether or not they like it..I will leave for my own sake even though I know my mom she knew my superior and that this has to be the busiest period for the company...
Nah, let's just put this heavy topic and talk about some happy things..haha..just recently knew that my friend has finally got a partner..!! Of course hereby I would like to congratulate them first..!! But they were like..staying too low profile that no one can actually sense them without knowing or asking around..fantastic..which is something I prompt to learn..haha..
From I what heard from my friend..it seems that they have their own type of methodologies to maintain the relationship..unlike most of the conventional types..they prefer to have more freedom than to stick with each other everyday..but of course they will still call each other...msn..going out..only at a lesser portion than anyone else..at first I find strange that how did they actually made through it for such a long time..somehow after fetching my friend home..I've given a thought on it..it's like..this could be the recipe to prolong a relationship..still have a lot in my mind but I would share in the next posting if i remember..haha..the fact that they made through one year is the best proof..!! haha..I can bet they'll stay longer like this..for sure..as long as they are happy..everything will be just fine!! But anyway..I will give my full blessings and support to them and may they hold on to the relationship as long as possible..afterall..it's not easy to find one these days..
Alright..that's all for today..have a nice weekend ladies and gentlemen..!! Until the next time..ciao~~

Why do I have so much of complaints???

That's a gd question..I've never been in such a state of having filled with tons of uncertainties in my mind ever since last summer..while I was looking and thinking of what kind of job suits me..and the same thing pops again today..sigh..what a weak individual I am huh..
It's just almost two months I'm working inside (keeps on repeating the same issue...)..I'm already in a confusing state whether to leave or stay..I've consulted my bro on this matter..what he said is right..there aren't any jobs in the world where there is no tension..no pressure..no difficulties..fully understood..but I don't know how to express the feeling of reluctance working in that department..though I haven't worked much as you guys are..this is the first time I have this sort weird feeling working there..maybe just as everyone told me..I'm just lacking of experience..time will sort this prob out for me..they might be right..and might be wrong..I'm not sure..as of now I'll do my best on my current job while looking for another one..haha (so faz...)..I'll let myself to find until it reaches my probation..if I found one before that..I'll leave..if otherwise..I'll stay for 1yr or 1yr+ until I got the opportunity..my bro even asked me to join the working forces in Singapore..I've given a thought of it..but it seems the timing is not right now..at least I'm not well prepared in terms of my mindset..and there are still lots of things to be done here..
Working in that dept benefits me though..they made me understood some of the philosophies of job..my colleagues are friendly..just that..I don't like that dept..even if u ask me now..What job suits you???? I can never give u a certain answer until I find one!! Lately I've been talking much lesser..even lin hua also becomes lesser..cham lo..haha..maybe I should just relax..take some time..and recover to being who I am..
Anyway..I'll complain almost every week..haha..I apologize for it..treat u guys eat next time for reading the same matters again..wahahahha..it feels gd though to express it out..better than keeping inside..anyhow..time to enjoy the rest of the day and back to work on Monday..take gd care everyone..I'll be doing fine and grow stronger..!!

Lazy to even think of one..

Phew..thr goes Friday again..a day which I have longed for almost everyday during my working hours..haha..damn...the prophet is quite pretty accurate on me for one matter (of course include something else which I even duno myself..)..I'm really born with a lazy attitude..
It's been 1.5 months for my job..neva once thought myself that I could cope that long as I was kinda failed to adapt in my 1st month..however it is..things have changes..I'm facing it optimistically..though sometimes still full of complaints..haha..but to be frank..I neva like this job..nor..I like this job..I stay neutral on this issue..maybe banking..or financial institutions weren't my cup of tea afterall..in time to come..whenever the opportunity presents..I'll be on my way to grab it..at least..I would try until I found a job that at least suits me in some way..never mind that..slowly..I'll create my own path..
On the other hand..congratulation to my bro who got his job offer at Singapore..and he would move in a couple of months time..unfortunately for my parents..the house is going to be quieter than usual..and even quieter in the future whn he migrates to Australia..I'll be the only one with my parents..sometimes I do wonder whether i should migrate like my bro..it's just so hard to leave everything that I established here..especially friends and food..and of course my parents..it's hard to imagine life without my bro..who has been helpful in building my confidence..who helped me whenever I have troubles..but anyway..I'll stand up as a man n ready to take his place..haha..wishing him all the best in his money-saving career in Singapore..!
That's all for tonight..if i ever have any ideas or thoughts again..will update thru this blog..until then..take gd care everyone and hv a nice weekend..!

Never Been That Easy..

It's almost the end of my first month of the job..prior to this week I was actually more on struggling than settling because I was giving myself unwanted pressures to adapt to the working environment..ppl around me..as well as the job I'm doing right now..I wanted to familiarize myself with all these asap..
I have to admit that those beliefs almost got me into depression..I was thinking about resigning because I found it hard to adjust myself with that kind of lifestyle..fortunately..my parents were beside me..advising me about the situation I was facing..thanks to them..I got my feet back on n remain who I am..and aiming to overcome some of the weaknesses which they pointed out during the discussion with them last week..
This job actually is more towards on becoming a business analyst..I love analyzing..instead of business..I would prefer more on analyzing and how to enhance organization performance..i.e..if I were to become an employee for the rest of my life..HR would be the place for me..even though I would face different kind of challenges though..as of now..I would take this job as a stepping stone for my next step..sorry to them but humans are selfish..especially when it comes to their own career..haha
Having said that..there's another ambitious thought in my head..which is to become my own boss one day..haha..becoz of a bak kut teh restaurant aound my area..they are actually a franchise-based store..like 7-11..and their business is remarkable..customers just couldn't stop walking in during lunch-time..which is why I have the thought..I never like seeing my boss' nor customers' 'bao gong' face..and being a boss myself could be more difficult than being an employee..but to me..a boss can learn how to lead..and during the process we learn and we grow..n of coz I prefer a more flexible working hour..instead of now..waking up at 6..jam all the way to my com n reach around 7.30..back around 7 n got jam again..I hate it..
But anyway..let's not think too far for the meanwhile as my new career has just commenced..I will think as it progresses..I will swear to overcome any barrier in order to fulfill my ambitions..as well as becoming a stronger leng zai jin...haha
Until the next time then...ciao and take gd care everyone..!!

Friday...

While I was still schooling..everyday seemed to be holiday..never thought that even for a moment..Friday..has become one of the most important days in a week..at least for me..haha
I'm not grumbling but..having worked and wake up early for five consecutive days..Friday night has always been the night I look forward to..even though I might not have any program or activity..this is the only day..including Saturday and the 1st half of Sunday..I can relax myself from work completely without bearing any pressure..troubles...bla bla bla..just plain enjoy these few days...sometimes I do really wonder if time ever reverts..tht's a silly question isn't it...?? Though I've been working for 2 weeks but I still find it hard to part with holidays..arrgghhh..I want those old days back...!!!!
Well..enough of complaints (it's grumbling in the end..haha)..it's time to get back to reality..I have to get back stronger..that's just life afterall..hohohoho..I'm looking forward to grow under such circumstances..!!
Until next time..stay tuned for the next update..be seeing u guys soon..!

A New Step in My Career

The first week of my job..has ended with some sort of expectations..expectations is a sense that my so call 'honeymoon' week will be ending sooner than I've anticipated..but that's a gd news to me..as I was always looking forward to doing something everyday instead of sitting there and wait for the tasks to come to my side..as everyone was busying rushing reports and analysis for the whole week..which I'll be living through in the near future..no more precise 5.45 pm-pack-things-go-home privilege..however that's what I'm hoping for..absorb and do as much as I can when I still have the youthful energy with me..for the sake of a better future..
Talking about my first week..the 1st two days had been quite suffering..as I had nothing to do..sitting there..look at the ceilings..the people around me..ear-dropping every one of their conversations..haha..I didn't do it on purpose but instead I was trying to understand what they said..trying to catch up with the knowledge which I'm lacking of currently..so as to perform my tasks individually asap without relying on others too much..our department is one of the busiest afterall..
My colleagues have all been very kind to me..especially the mother-like secretary of our department..always full of laughter and jokes..while the others may be serious in their work..they could sometimes involve in 'lin-hua' as well..at least we have something to ease the pressure while in the midst of fighting a war..they even treated me lunch in a Japanese restaurant ystd..which was quite a surprise for me because it was one of colleagues' birthday..so we went to celebrate with her..but it turned out to be a welcome lunch for me as well when I got back..Thank you..!!..haha..will find a chance to treat u guys when they bank-in my salaries..haha
Looking back at the moment when I was about to sign the offer letter..I was hesitate on the column "Prefer Date of Employment", I was pretty reluctant to give up the life I was enjoying at that moment..as of now..I see this as a stage where I have to proceed regardless of how unwilling I am to accept this reality..as of now..instead of anxiety..it is expectation that I'm looking forward to..relishing any challenge that comes to me..!!
I guess that's about it..so far nothing interesting happened lately but i will keep you guys posted with the latest happenings in my job...until next time..ciao and take gd care minna-san..!!

Back to the past..

Having read JJ's blog not long ago..he mentioned about the past..the past in which we were secondary students..
Come to think of it..I miss it a lot as well..by chance..if there's any..I would love to go back again at any cost..no troubles..not much worries..chit chatting in the class..gossip..blow water..meet up with new friends..that's just so so so so relaxing...too bad we can't change the fact that we age yr by yr ..there's nothing we can do about it..
Well..i guess that's just life..we have to advance to a new stage at a certain age..we grow and we mature..hopefully all of us could cope with all the challenges and may our lives fill with prosper and good health..!!

Determine for a change..

It's been a while since my last blog entry..hmm..one-and-a half-month?? Guess that's not important..this is the 1st entry for my new blog site..haha..I've given up the old MSN spaces and move it here..a new start..!

I am yet to start a new career in my life..lazy..?? or hate to part with the relaxing life at the moment..?? I guess the later should be the main point..but anyhow..I'm looking for job at the present (not as aggressive as others though..) and hopefully I can be offered to start my career soon..personally I feel that's a necessity..if I don't start now..I'll slack even further which is something I want to avoid..

Talking about finding jobs..I did have a very bad first interview..something I wished to erase among my memories..it did give me a good lesson though..yes..it's the first interview in my whole life..!! Holy shit..nervousness..uncertainties..filled my mind when I was facing the interviewers..fortunately they have asked for a second session..ever since this incident..I swear I would do better and try my best in every interview I attend..at least I have to learn to overcome some of the unknown fears growing inside me..I'm not sure what are those..but I will dominate them and make them bow...it's easier to be said than done..I'll just have to give my best shot..for the sake of my future..!! Sometimes I really do envy my friends around me..especially the ones who are working..at least they have commenced their own new page..I'm still in the middle of the crossroads..lost and useless..but not exactly of course..haha..I'm sure this will end..it's just a matter of time..
My life after graduation so far has been pretty relaxing..visited and traveled to few locations..Redang..Genting..Ipoh and Penang..it's rare that I could make myself available for so many trips..though it won't last long..I definitely enjoyed every of this trip..!! However.I find that there's a small change of personality on myself..I've become slightly bashful and emotional at times..I guess that has got something to do with the duration i stay at home these days..haha..just need to get it over with..interact with people more and have outings could improve my current situation..hopefully..haha..and to improve my English further is one of my targets as well..!!
Anyway..i guess it's time to post it up..can't wait for it..haha..until the next time..bye~~~