Why do I have so much of complaints???

That's a gd question..I've never been in such a state of having filled with tons of uncertainties in my mind ever since last summer..while I was looking and thinking of what kind of job suits me..and the same thing pops again today..sigh..what a weak individual I am huh..
It's just almost two months I'm working inside (keeps on repeating the same issue...)..I'm already in a confusing state whether to leave or stay..I've consulted my bro on this matter..what he said is right..there aren't any jobs in the world where there is no tension..no pressure..no difficulties..fully understood..but I don't know how to express the feeling of reluctance working in that department..though I haven't worked much as you guys are..this is the first time I have this sort weird feeling working there..maybe just as everyone told me..I'm just lacking of experience..time will sort this prob out for me..they might be right..and might be wrong..I'm not sure..as of now I'll do my best on my current job while looking for another one..haha (so faz...)..I'll let myself to find until it reaches my probation..if I found one before that..I'll leave..if otherwise..I'll stay for 1yr or 1yr+ until I got the opportunity..my bro even asked me to join the working forces in Singapore..I've given a thought of it..but it seems the timing is not right now..at least I'm not well prepared in terms of my mindset..and there are still lots of things to be done here..
Working in that dept benefits me though..they made me understood some of the philosophies of job..my colleagues are friendly..just that..I don't like that dept..even if u ask me now..What job suits you???? I can never give u a certain answer until I find one!! Lately I've been talking much lesser..even lin hua also becomes lesser..cham lo..haha..maybe I should just relax..take some time..and recover to being who I am..
Anyway..I'll complain almost every week..haha..I apologize for it..treat u guys eat next time for reading the same matters again..wahahahha..it feels gd though to express it out..better than keeping inside..anyhow..time to enjoy the rest of the day and back to work on Monday..take gd care everyone..I'll be doing fine and grow stronger..!!