Add Oil!

Lately my job hasn't been that smooth, and my working form has been in a mess..well..I'll be in one hell of week starting from the day after tomorrow..but nvm..I won't go down so easily..but seriously..my time is up in this department..I would really hope for an new environment soon before everything turns bad for me..anyway..finish complaining..continue to enjoying the rest of today and tomorrow..hohoho..there's always a glimpse of light in times of darkness..add oil!

Let's Move!!

Just before I went off to Pangkor for a trip..I had a visit to a doc for my nose..on the way..I asked my mom a question..'hey..if i ever resigned..can I operate my nose upon serving the notice period?'...she showed her expression..as if it was something like.."f**k off!! you should have gone for it after you've graduated..now you're telling me this again!!!???"..well...I was quite astonished with that sort of reaction...but she was right..I should have really gone for it..and it led to a new topic..
That was all about decision making really...in my opinion I must follow the path to HR..irregardless by any means to achieve it..but my mom sits down and talk to me calmly..analyzed to myself..am I suitable...?? Do I like it..?? A freaking good question which I haven't done it..when she asked me that...great...I couldn't give a damn word out! That's when I asked myself..am I...do I????? I gave myself some hard time thinking about it..even during working hours..eventually it came out with something..first of all..'Do I like it?'...yes I do!!! But...when it comes to suitability...that goes to ground zero..no..one might say you can do it as you gained experience..well in reality that goes the other way..it's a long story but in a nutshell..I can only say that I'm too soft to be in that field..
I made up my mind in Pangkor..I've decided to stay in banking line..but I'm not going to stay where I am for sure..I will look for somewhere else where reporting is not part of their core job..I want something different..no more f***ing reporting stuff..I really hate it a lot..after a long war in search for HR..now goes back to square one ironically...it changed as quick as lightning..haha..but that's my final decision..a banker for life!! (sha meh.....)
I hope the process won't be lengthy like last time..it's my ambition for a change of environment this yr..that's all..now I'm all geared up and let's move!!! That's all guys for this week...hohohoho..until the next time thn..nite everyone!!


p/s: I missed the crazy hours in Pangkor..but certainly not alcohol...shit...3 consecutive days of hard liquor made my liver hard!!! touch wood!!!!!!!! choi choi choi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stubborness..

Looking at this topic..it makes me wonder how many wrong decisions I've taken so far..the mistakes were not costly but certainly it's torturing..well..a typical taurus always can't avoid the word 'stubborn'..
It's a nice thing that you have strong determination and the will to achieve something beyond your reach..but at the meantime..u must learn how to leave some capacity to yourself to accept third-party or second opinion..do not push yourself to the corner just because you think you're right...when you aren't..you might have your own reason but rmb that's not always right..
Take a look at me as a prime example..I believed I have announced my intention to leave long long long time ago..but now..my situation remains and nothing changes...why? Just solely a word..stubborn..
I always that with a degree of mine like such would definitely get a job in no time..however...my blog reveals it all..reality is always cruel my friends..my parents' friends advised me to take something that is related to HR..well my decision is to remain as it is..I have considered it but I told myself to stay where I am and not taking a step forward to any other ideas..one month..two months..and now approximately 7 months looking for jobs...i must wave the white flag..time for me to take U Turn..I hope it's not too late to make this decision..
It was hard at first when my mom lectured me..i feel kinda reluctant to accept what she said but when i calmed myself down..it's pretty reasonable...my nose could have been better if i had gone for the surgery before the commencement of my work..I would have changed my work if I had listened to them...
What done is done..I have made the decision to perform a big U Turn..most probably I'll be taking Masters..I planned to take that after few years but it seems it has to be brought forward..hopefully this time may god bless me everything goes smoothly for me..after that I'll be continuing my job hunting again...
Now my mind is much clearer..at least I'm trying to overcome one my fatal weaknesses..I need to open myself to other opinions...I'm already afraid to be that stubborn anymore..it makes you blind and you gotta go through helluva twist and turns before you realize you're wrong..
Always rmb...it's good to determine on something you believe..but try open to other opinions as well..advices are hard to be absorbed nevertheless it could benefit you in the long term..or even in your life..until the next time..hohohoho..sleepy after a can of beer...hohohoho..nite guys!

Flu

I intended to update a blog today but my flu doesn't allow me to...not sure when I'm going to have the chance as the flu might still be dragging for quite some time..shit...of all sicknesses I've been through flu is the only one I hate the most..it's just like a domino effect..with plenty more to come...pls...pls stop...I'm tired enough to take another wave of this....

Obsession..

This word is best to describe me lately...kinda say that I'm obsessed into something which I think I had the opportunity..
It happens that I had a two interview session at BASF..logically speaking...I thought I should have the chance to join them..well..that's if I have the chance though..been waiting for them more than one month..but the outcome is just disappointing...I never disappointed at the company..afterall they are the ones to decide who to hire...I'm just utterly disappointed over myself for over-expecting it...like the chinese old saying..the higher the expectation..the greater the disappointment..the only relief I have is that I had planned for the worst...and the heart to accept a bad result...
But anyway..I never intend to spend so much time on it because I believe I have to move on..the clock will not just stand still and wait for me to grab it..life still goes on and job hunting is still ongoing..though sometimes I'm tired mentally....I never gave up..I remind myself all the time the I must hang on..wait for the right opportunity and take it..well..I've been saying that for the last 6 months past..everyone has been asking the same thing..'wao..the last time i heard from you till now oso havent changed ur job a?'..the only answer I have is just this...it's never easy to have a job these days..you will have to put in your effort to find them instead of otherwise...until the day of revolution..I will not surrender myself to the current field!!!
My gosh...I wish to write more but my head is not listening to me..the alcohol is doing brilliantly stopping me from continue any further..but I guess the next update wouldn't take long..until next time then..good night everyone!!!

Tough..

Endured a tough week..I wish I didn't waste a week as such in order to hope for a better future...haha..again so emo on this issue again...nah..try not to be so obsessed bout it..tht's life..it gives u an idea on how u will choose your path from now on..and it does..I need nothing but only an opportunity..
Anyway...just drop by and leave a note here..will return for more updates soon..tired..mentally damn exhausted...but i will remain my trust in this...NEW YR NEW HOPE!!!! GOGOGOGO!!!!

So Much..Yet....So Less...

I had taken some time...thinking about this matter for the last few weeks...well...I didn't know why I had such mood to do this but I guess it has got something to do with my current job...haha..again...I lay on the bed and had deep thoughts...about how should I plan for the future...
I have made it public that my ambition is to go Japan one day...to live and to work there...even now it's still burning inside me...!! put aside the trouble of searching jobs there...if I fail to resign this year...my plan would be delayed again...thought it has for few months already..of course I would hope the earlier the better...because that path is never never that easy..I have to learn 1st...before I can even think afar....as of now...I got nothing...people might ask..you don't have to wait until you resign...why don't you just start now??? I did consider..but..my current job has no stable working hours...they require you to arrive on time..but to leave as late as possible..sometimes I really wonder about it..what for???? But anyway..that was one of the reasons..the other is because I'm focusing on searching jobs instead of taking courses..it's tiring when you try to hug everything at once..I pass on that and focus one at a time...let's just hope it can be sorted out this year...I really hope so...desperately...I'm 23 this yr and I'm not getting any younger as time goes on...thr's much to do...but sadly the time is just so limited..
Luck has been in the dark..almost got flat tyre...fail to change job...burnt my own finger...especially this one..when I look back at this indeed it feels strange for myself as well..it was my grandma's 100th day memorial..I took the 元宝 with me...well..the burning site was quite far from me..so I have to ignite it before I put it at the site..maybe the way I hold was wrong..the fire spread so quickly that by right..I should have let it go when I felt the heat..unfortunately..it wasn't the case though...instead I hold it in my hands n tried my best to run to the point..in the end it was useless anyway...not only I burnt my thumb..I couldn't reach the site that I have to forgo it when I was almost there...sigh...people just keep on asking the reason for holding it despite feeling the heat...it might due to my own stupidity???? maybe right...maybe no...but the result was I had one of the most painful experiences in my life..now it's taking time to recover...hopefully the wound would dry off b4 the new yr comes..
I guess that's about it for today..just as the title shown...so much..yet..so less...I have much in my mind to convert into words..but...I have so less mood to continue now...haha...in this CNY...I hope everyone 兔气扬眉...dreams come true..healthy n wealthy..and of course..so much...but still so much!!!