So Much..Yet....So Less...

I had taken some time...thinking about this matter for the last few weeks...well...I didn't know why I had such mood to do this but I guess it has got something to do with my current job...haha..again...I lay on the bed and had deep thoughts...about how should I plan for the future...
I have made it public that my ambition is to go Japan one day...to live and to work there...even now it's still burning inside me...!! put aside the trouble of searching jobs there...if I fail to resign this year...my plan would be delayed again...thought it has for few months already..of course I would hope the earlier the better...because that path is never never that easy..I have to learn 1st...before I can even think afar....as of now...I got nothing...people might ask..you don't have to wait until you resign...why don't you just start now??? I did consider..but..my current job has no stable working hours...they require you to arrive on time..but to leave as late as possible..sometimes I really wonder about it..what for???? But anyway..that was one of the reasons..the other is because I'm focusing on searching jobs instead of taking courses..it's tiring when you try to hug everything at once..I pass on that and focus one at a time...let's just hope it can be sorted out this year...I really hope so...desperately...I'm 23 this yr and I'm not getting any younger as time goes on...thr's much to do...but sadly the time is just so limited..
Luck has been in the dark..almost got flat tyre...fail to change job...burnt my own finger...especially this one..when I look back at this indeed it feels strange for myself as well..it was my grandma's 100th day memorial..I took the 元宝 with me...well..the burning site was quite far from me..so I have to ignite it before I put it at the site..maybe the way I hold was wrong..the fire spread so quickly that by right..I should have let it go when I felt the heat..unfortunately..it wasn't the case though...instead I hold it in my hands n tried my best to run to the point..in the end it was useless anyway...not only I burnt my thumb..I couldn't reach the site that I have to forgo it when I was almost there...sigh...people just keep on asking the reason for holding it despite feeling the heat...it might due to my own stupidity???? maybe right...maybe no...but the result was I had one of the most painful experiences in my life..now it's taking time to recover...hopefully the wound would dry off b4 the new yr comes..
I guess that's about it for today..just as the title shown...so much..yet..so less...I have much in my mind to convert into words..but...I have so less mood to continue now...haha...in this CNY...I hope everyone 兔气扬眉...dreams come true..healthy n wealthy..and of course..so much...but still so much!!!