Flu

I intended to update a blog today but my flu doesn't allow me to...not sure when I'm going to have the chance as the flu might still be dragging for quite some time..shit...of all sicknesses I've been through flu is the only one I hate the most..it's just like a domino effect..with plenty more to come...pls...pls stop...I'm tired enough to take another wave of this....

Obsession..

This word is best to describe me lately...kinda say that I'm obsessed into something which I think I had the opportunity..
It happens that I had a two interview session at BASF..logically speaking...I thought I should have the chance to join them..well..that's if I have the chance though..been waiting for them more than one month..but the outcome is just disappointing...I never disappointed at the company..afterall they are the ones to decide who to hire...I'm just utterly disappointed over myself for over-expecting it...like the chinese old saying..the higher the expectation..the greater the disappointment..the only relief I have is that I had planned for the worst...and the heart to accept a bad result...
But anyway..I never intend to spend so much time on it because I believe I have to move on..the clock will not just stand still and wait for me to grab it..life still goes on and job hunting is still ongoing..though sometimes I'm tired mentally....I never gave up..I remind myself all the time the I must hang on..wait for the right opportunity and take it..well..I've been saying that for the last 6 months past..everyone has been asking the same thing..'wao..the last time i heard from you till now oso havent changed ur job a?'..the only answer I have is just this...it's never easy to have a job these days..you will have to put in your effort to find them instead of otherwise...until the day of revolution..I will not surrender myself to the current field!!!
My gosh...I wish to write more but my head is not listening to me..the alcohol is doing brilliantly stopping me from continue any further..but I guess the next update wouldn't take long..until next time then..good night everyone!!!

Tough..

Endured a tough week..I wish I didn't waste a week as such in order to hope for a better future...haha..again so emo on this issue again...nah..try not to be so obsessed bout it..tht's life..it gives u an idea on how u will choose your path from now on..and it does..I need nothing but only an opportunity..
Anyway...just drop by and leave a note here..will return for more updates soon..tired..mentally damn exhausted...but i will remain my trust in this...NEW YR NEW HOPE!!!! GOGOGOGO!!!!

So Much..Yet....So Less...

I had taken some time...thinking about this matter for the last few weeks...well...I didn't know why I had such mood to do this but I guess it has got something to do with my current job...haha..again...I lay on the bed and had deep thoughts...about how should I plan for the future...
I have made it public that my ambition is to go Japan one day...to live and to work there...even now it's still burning inside me...!! put aside the trouble of searching jobs there...if I fail to resign this year...my plan would be delayed again...thought it has for few months already..of course I would hope the earlier the better...because that path is never never that easy..I have to learn 1st...before I can even think afar....as of now...I got nothing...people might ask..you don't have to wait until you resign...why don't you just start now??? I did consider..but..my current job has no stable working hours...they require you to arrive on time..but to leave as late as possible..sometimes I really wonder about it..what for???? But anyway..that was one of the reasons..the other is because I'm focusing on searching jobs instead of taking courses..it's tiring when you try to hug everything at once..I pass on that and focus one at a time...let's just hope it can be sorted out this year...I really hope so...desperately...I'm 23 this yr and I'm not getting any younger as time goes on...thr's much to do...but sadly the time is just so limited..
Luck has been in the dark..almost got flat tyre...fail to change job...burnt my own finger...especially this one..when I look back at this indeed it feels strange for myself as well..it was my grandma's 100th day memorial..I took the 元宝 with me...well..the burning site was quite far from me..so I have to ignite it before I put it at the site..maybe the way I hold was wrong..the fire spread so quickly that by right..I should have let it go when I felt the heat..unfortunately..it wasn't the case though...instead I hold it in my hands n tried my best to run to the point..in the end it was useless anyway...not only I burnt my thumb..I couldn't reach the site that I have to forgo it when I was almost there...sigh...people just keep on asking the reason for holding it despite feeling the heat...it might due to my own stupidity???? maybe right...maybe no...but the result was I had one of the most painful experiences in my life..now it's taking time to recover...hopefully the wound would dry off b4 the new yr comes..
I guess that's about it for today..just as the title shown...so much..yet..so less...I have much in my mind to convert into words..but...I have so less mood to continue now...haha...in this CNY...I hope everyone 兔气扬眉...dreams come true..healthy n wealthy..and of course..so much...but still so much!!!

A brief review of 2010....

Certainly when you guys look at the title..u'll know what will i mention in this story...haha..just as usual..but really it's been quite a long time since I wrote a blog...hohohohoho..dun mind it..new yr...new hope..and of course...new blog entry...
2010...a yr wif full of surprises...haha..in short...my emotions were just at two extremes...either too happy or too sad..hohohoho..put aside the sad ones...just focus on the other side...well..tht's of coz it included some of the best memories of my life..graduation trip to..errrrr..actually was a ipoh-penang trip..short...yet so unforgettable...another surprise was that the final yr result i received in July..at 1st i thought it would be a doom for me becoz i had a bad second year..it's just unbelievable that i got a second-upper in the end...i can't even trust it's real even up till now when i think about how I actually lived past my uni days...haha..well..anyway...a fact is a fact though..hohohohoho
Just a glimpse and 2011 has actually arrived..new year...of course i would certainly pray for a new hope to fall upon me..i have been wishing only but one thing..which is too change my current job asap...to be honest...i really stay thr becoz of my family...if if hasn't been that reason...i would have resigned...probably sitting at home searching for jobs like others...haha..just that..deep inside me..i hv strong feeling that my parents still belif bank is the only best path I have...but..i would like them to know that i decide my own happiness and path from now on..i really do appreciate their comments or ideas..nevertheless i still feel that i have to walk myself after graduating...so fan jian har...haha..well...isn't it common?????
Anyway....i shall focus on what i have to...but...i will only proceed my other planning after changing my environment...as of now...i can oni say finding a new job is not easy at all...but i will not give up..not even a second..even if it means to take months to find...haha..2012 is just next yr..i should cherish every moment i have..at least let me change my job please...really sometimes nid to burst d...haih..leave it..i've been blabbered too much on this issue...sui yuan ba...
I bet it's time to my leave as I have taken some alcoholic drinks...hohohohoo..feeling dizzy and cant think too much...2011...may all wishes come true to all of you...all the best in everything..and of course not without a health body and a sober mind...add oil everyone..so am I..in everything...oyasumi-nasai mina-san!!!!!!

It's Time to Move On..

Talking bout last few days..precisely to say last week..I was damn moody..not because of the problems I faced at my jobplace..nor it was because I failed in my confession..Instead..I purposely went home early that day from office not only because I had a football session..but also to share this great news with my family..which was I got an interview from Shell..well..it was SUPPOSED to be one great thing..in the end it was all ruined up by my mom...
I understand what she concerned of..this job is contractual basis..which means I've got no guarantee to be renewed once the contract is over..and also no guarantee that I will be converted into a permanent staff of Shell..at least I hoped she would allow me for the interview..if i have given up this chance I wouldn't even know whether there's an opportunity for me..even though I turned them down in the end...haha..sometimes I just don't understand why is she insisting me to go for internal transfer..she gives me a feeling that she wants me to follow dad and her footstep..to start and end a career in a banking line..telling everything about how good is a bank..how wide the job scope is in a bank and so on...and so forth..until my dad intervened in our so call conversation..then only I could calm down and listen to his advice...my dad is good at tht kind of situation..haha..
Anyway..I have turned down the opportunity to join Shell because they cant promise a permanent position when my contract's over..I would never wanna find a job again once in a while..it's tiring..and it's quite far actually..plus the expenses thr..is HUGE...one hour parking rate is RM 6..far far far more expensive than pavillion..now it's time to move on..the journey in search for job again..hopefully this time the position they offer will not let me down..well not me..is my mom..haha
Ystd has to one of the most embarrassing days of my life..I actually got drunk at my fren's house not because I keep on dui-ing..but because my body couldn't support alcohol mixing (brandy + beer)..I lost the game..fulfill my punishment...in the end..DRUNK...god damn fish..!! Which is why i avoid whisky brandy all the time...PLS...DUN LET ME TAKE THOSE ANYMORE..haha..hopefully they can see it..
It's been a while since i last updated but I guess it's time to chill again...hohohoho..b seeing u guys soon..sayonara~~~

One hell of an October..

It's been a while baby..i think the gap shud be quite huge from the last post..haha..nvm..it's pretty much common to me though..
This month..as shown (title..)..is really one hell of a month..not in terms of anything..but full of surprises..especially my grandma's departure..it's quite a shocking..three days prior to that..my bro and i visited her at the nursing home..still energetic and sharp as usual..but happened to have flu with her..three days later..when i recovered back from my sickness as well..the first thing i got at office was none other than my mom's call..telling me that grandma passed away peacefully on the bed..it was just ten minutes after i sat down..preparing for work..shocking...a real stunner..regardless of how it was..it's actually a relief for both her n my family..she's released from the suffering all these years..while my parents were discharged from the financial burden..anyhow..may her rest in peace eternally..n look upon us up thr in heaven..
I told my parents my decision..and surprisingly (2nd surprise..)...they never yelled at me..or even scolded me for once..in fact they supported me to leave..it seems my parents understand my situation..and i have never considered that they actually will..!! When i had this conversation with my mom in the toilet..i was kinda scared actually..afraid that she couldn't accept..and blast me with her 'machine-gun'...
Anyway..permission is granted..green light is given..now it's time for a full scale mode in search for jobs..road to HR..!! Hopefully I'll tag along this sector until I retired..haha..but it's hard these days for youngsters to really know what they want..even for myself..I'll try..and I'll do my best..for the sake of my ambition..!!
That's it for this week..time to relax..it's saturday night after all..haha..take gd care everyone..!!