Never Been That Easy..

It's almost the end of my first month of the job..prior to this week I was actually more on struggling than settling because I was giving myself unwanted pressures to adapt to the working environment..ppl around me..as well as the job I'm doing right now..I wanted to familiarize myself with all these asap..
I have to admit that those beliefs almost got me into depression..I was thinking about resigning because I found it hard to adjust myself with that kind of lifestyle..fortunately..my parents were beside me..advising me about the situation I was facing..thanks to them..I got my feet back on n remain who I am..and aiming to overcome some of the weaknesses which they pointed out during the discussion with them last week..
This job actually is more towards on becoming a business analyst..I love analyzing..instead of business..I would prefer more on analyzing and how to enhance organization performance..i.e..if I were to become an employee for the rest of my life..HR would be the place for me..even though I would face different kind of challenges though..as of now..I would take this job as a stepping stone for my next step..sorry to them but humans are selfish..especially when it comes to their own career..haha
Having said that..there's another ambitious thought in my head..which is to become my own boss one day..haha..becoz of a bak kut teh restaurant aound my area..they are actually a franchise-based store..like 7-11..and their business is remarkable..customers just couldn't stop walking in during lunch-time..which is why I have the thought..I never like seeing my boss' nor customers' 'bao gong' face..and being a boss myself could be more difficult than being an employee..but to me..a boss can learn how to lead..and during the process we learn and we grow..n of coz I prefer a more flexible working hour..instead of now..waking up at 6..jam all the way to my com n reach around 7.30..back around 7 n got jam again..I hate it..
But anyway..let's not think too far for the meanwhile as my new career has just commenced..I will think as it progresses..I will swear to overcome any barrier in order to fulfill my ambitions..as well as becoming a stronger leng zai jin...haha
Until the next time then...ciao and take gd care everyone..!!

Friday...

While I was still schooling..everyday seemed to be holiday..never thought that even for a moment..Friday..has become one of the most important days in a week..at least for me..haha
I'm not grumbling but..having worked and wake up early for five consecutive days..Friday night has always been the night I look forward to..even though I might not have any program or activity..this is the only day..including Saturday and the 1st half of Sunday..I can relax myself from work completely without bearing any pressure..troubles...bla bla bla..just plain enjoy these few days...sometimes I do really wonder if time ever reverts..tht's a silly question isn't it...?? Though I've been working for 2 weeks but I still find it hard to part with holidays..arrgghhh..I want those old days back...!!!!
Well..enough of complaints (it's grumbling in the end..haha)..it's time to get back to reality..I have to get back stronger..that's just life afterall..hohohoho..I'm looking forward to grow under such circumstances..!!
Until next time..stay tuned for the next update..be seeing u guys soon..!

A New Step in My Career

The first week of my job..has ended with some sort of expectations..expectations is a sense that my so call 'honeymoon' week will be ending sooner than I've anticipated..but that's a gd news to me..as I was always looking forward to doing something everyday instead of sitting there and wait for the tasks to come to my side..as everyone was busying rushing reports and analysis for the whole week..which I'll be living through in the near future..no more precise 5.45 pm-pack-things-go-home privilege..however that's what I'm hoping for..absorb and do as much as I can when I still have the youthful energy with me..for the sake of a better future..
Talking about my first week..the 1st two days had been quite suffering..as I had nothing to do..sitting there..look at the ceilings..the people around me..ear-dropping every one of their conversations..haha..I didn't do it on purpose but instead I was trying to understand what they said..trying to catch up with the knowledge which I'm lacking of currently..so as to perform my tasks individually asap without relying on others too much..our department is one of the busiest afterall..
My colleagues have all been very kind to me..especially the mother-like secretary of our department..always full of laughter and jokes..while the others may be serious in their work..they could sometimes involve in 'lin-hua' as well..at least we have something to ease the pressure while in the midst of fighting a war..they even treated me lunch in a Japanese restaurant ystd..which was quite a surprise for me because it was one of colleagues' birthday..so we went to celebrate with her..but it turned out to be a welcome lunch for me as well when I got back..Thank you..!!..haha..will find a chance to treat u guys when they bank-in my salaries..haha
Looking back at the moment when I was about to sign the offer letter..I was hesitate on the column "Prefer Date of Employment", I was pretty reluctant to give up the life I was enjoying at that moment..as of now..I see this as a stage where I have to proceed regardless of how unwilling I am to accept this reality..as of now..instead of anxiety..it is expectation that I'm looking forward to..relishing any challenge that comes to me..!!
I guess that's about it..so far nothing interesting happened lately but i will keep you guys posted with the latest happenings in my job...until next time..ciao and take gd care minna-san..!!

Back to the past..

Having read JJ's blog not long ago..he mentioned about the past..the past in which we were secondary students..
Come to think of it..I miss it a lot as well..by chance..if there's any..I would love to go back again at any cost..no troubles..not much worries..chit chatting in the class..gossip..blow water..meet up with new friends..that's just so so so so relaxing...too bad we can't change the fact that we age yr by yr ..there's nothing we can do about it..
Well..i guess that's just life..we have to advance to a new stage at a certain age..we grow and we mature..hopefully all of us could cope with all the challenges and may our lives fill with prosper and good health..!!

Determine for a change..

It's been a while since my last blog entry..hmm..one-and-a half-month?? Guess that's not important..this is the 1st entry for my new blog site..haha..I've given up the old MSN spaces and move it here..a new start..!

I am yet to start a new career in my life..lazy..?? or hate to part with the relaxing life at the moment..?? I guess the later should be the main point..but anyhow..I'm looking for job at the present (not as aggressive as others though..) and hopefully I can be offered to start my career soon..personally I feel that's a necessity..if I don't start now..I'll slack even further which is something I want to avoid..

Talking about finding jobs..I did have a very bad first interview..something I wished to erase among my memories..it did give me a good lesson though..yes..it's the first interview in my whole life..!! Holy shit..nervousness..uncertainties..filled my mind when I was facing the interviewers..fortunately they have asked for a second session..ever since this incident..I swear I would do better and try my best in every interview I attend..at least I have to learn to overcome some of the unknown fears growing inside me..I'm not sure what are those..but I will dominate them and make them bow...it's easier to be said than done..I'll just have to give my best shot..for the sake of my future..!! Sometimes I really do envy my friends around me..especially the ones who are working..at least they have commenced their own new page..I'm still in the middle of the crossroads..lost and useless..but not exactly of course..haha..I'm sure this will end..it's just a matter of time..
My life after graduation so far has been pretty relaxing..visited and traveled to few locations..Redang..Genting..Ipoh and Penang..it's rare that I could make myself available for so many trips..though it won't last long..I definitely enjoyed every of this trip..!! However.I find that there's a small change of personality on myself..I've become slightly bashful and emotional at times..I guess that has got something to do with the duration i stay at home these days..haha..just need to get it over with..interact with people more and have outings could improve my current situation..hopefully..haha..and to improve my English further is one of my targets as well..!!
Anyway..i guess it's time to post it up..can't wait for it..haha..until the next time..bye~~~