Why do I have so much of complaints???

That's a gd question..I've never been in such a state of having filled with tons of uncertainties in my mind ever since last summer..while I was looking and thinking of what kind of job suits me..and the same thing pops again today..sigh..what a weak individual I am huh..
It's just almost two months I'm working inside (keeps on repeating the same issue...)..I'm already in a confusing state whether to leave or stay..I've consulted my bro on this matter..what he said is right..there aren't any jobs in the world where there is no tension..no pressure..no difficulties..fully understood..but I don't know how to express the feeling of reluctance working in that department..though I haven't worked much as you guys are..this is the first time I have this sort weird feeling working there..maybe just as everyone told me..I'm just lacking of experience..time will sort this prob out for me..they might be right..and might be wrong..I'm not sure..as of now I'll do my best on my current job while looking for another one..haha (so faz...)..I'll let myself to find until it reaches my probation..if I found one before that..I'll leave..if otherwise..I'll stay for 1yr or 1yr+ until I got the opportunity..my bro even asked me to join the working forces in Singapore..I've given a thought of it..but it seems the timing is not right now..at least I'm not well prepared in terms of my mindset..and there are still lots of things to be done here..
Working in that dept benefits me though..they made me understood some of the philosophies of job..my colleagues are friendly..just that..I don't like that dept..even if u ask me now..What job suits you???? I can never give u a certain answer until I find one!! Lately I've been talking much lesser..even lin hua also becomes lesser..cham lo..haha..maybe I should just relax..take some time..and recover to being who I am..
Anyway..I'll complain almost every week..haha..I apologize for it..treat u guys eat next time for reading the same matters again..wahahahha..it feels gd though to express it out..better than keeping inside..anyhow..time to enjoy the rest of the day and back to work on Monday..take gd care everyone..I'll be doing fine and grow stronger..!!

Lazy to even think of one..

Phew..thr goes Friday again..a day which I have longed for almost everyday during my working hours..haha..damn...the prophet is quite pretty accurate on me for one matter (of course include something else which I even duno myself..)..I'm really born with a lazy attitude..
It's been 1.5 months for my job..neva once thought myself that I could cope that long as I was kinda failed to adapt in my 1st month..however it is..things have changes..I'm facing it optimistically..though sometimes still full of complaints..haha..but to be frank..I neva like this job..nor..I like this job..I stay neutral on this issue..maybe banking..or financial institutions weren't my cup of tea afterall..in time to come..whenever the opportunity presents..I'll be on my way to grab it..at least..I would try until I found a job that at least suits me in some way..never mind that..slowly..I'll create my own path..
On the other hand..congratulation to my bro who got his job offer at Singapore..and he would move in a couple of months time..unfortunately for my parents..the house is going to be quieter than usual..and even quieter in the future whn he migrates to Australia..I'll be the only one with my parents..sometimes I do wonder whether i should migrate like my bro..it's just so hard to leave everything that I established here..especially friends and food..and of course my parents..it's hard to imagine life without my bro..who has been helpful in building my confidence..who helped me whenever I have troubles..but anyway..I'll stand up as a man n ready to take his place..haha..wishing him all the best in his money-saving career in Singapore..!
That's all for tonight..if i ever have any ideas or thoughts again..will update thru this blog..until then..take gd care everyone and hv a nice weekend..!