No Turning Back!!

As usual, I was lazy ystd to post anything, just a brief and short update, now only I know there are things in the world which you have to gain it in a painful way to rmb and to utilise it, that happened on me ystd when I was trying to solve a problem. It made me looked like a clown and certainly it has indicated how immature I am when these things come around, I'll improve in this part. But once again, I need to reiterate my desire to say this again, once a chance presents there will be no turning back to this field anymore...this will be the last finance dept I'll ever join!! Well, finish complaining...time to enjoy my day..hohohoho

The Feel Is Coming..

Lately I've been lazy to update, lot of things to write but I'm not motivated to type anything..but anyway..feeling is coming right these days..let's hope things are getting better until the end of the year..and getting better I mean a restart..haha..not rushing but hoping..I'll try to gv a shot next week to come out with something..until then..gd night!

Add Oil!

Lately my job hasn't been that smooth, and my working form has been in a mess..well..I'll be in one hell of week starting from the day after tomorrow..but nvm..I won't go down so easily..but seriously..my time is up in this department..I would really hope for an new environment soon before everything turns bad for me..anyway..finish complaining..continue to enjoying the rest of today and tomorrow..hohoho..there's always a glimpse of light in times of darkness..add oil!

Let's Move!!

Just before I went off to Pangkor for a trip..I had a visit to a doc for my nose..on the way..I asked my mom a question..'hey..if i ever resigned..can I operate my nose upon serving the notice period?'...she showed her expression..as if it was something like.."f**k off!! you should have gone for it after you've graduated..now you're telling me this again!!!???"..well...I was quite astonished with that sort of reaction...but she was right..I should have really gone for it..and it led to a new topic..
That was all about decision making really...in my opinion I must follow the path to HR..irregardless by any means to achieve it..but my mom sits down and talk to me calmly..analyzed to myself..am I suitable...?? Do I like it..?? A freaking good question which I haven't done it..when she asked me that...great...I couldn't give a damn word out! That's when I asked myself..am I...do I????? I gave myself some hard time thinking about it..even during working hours..eventually it came out with something..first of all..'Do I like it?'...yes I do!!! But...when it comes to suitability...that goes to ground zero..no..one might say you can do it as you gained experience..well in reality that goes the other way..it's a long story but in a nutshell..I can only say that I'm too soft to be in that field..
I made up my mind in Pangkor..I've decided to stay in banking line..but I'm not going to stay where I am for sure..I will look for somewhere else where reporting is not part of their core job..I want something different..no more f***ing reporting stuff..I really hate it a lot..after a long war in search for HR..now goes back to square one ironically...it changed as quick as lightning..haha..but that's my final decision..a banker for life!! (sha meh.....)
I hope the process won't be lengthy like last time..it's my ambition for a change of environment this yr..that's all..now I'm all geared up and let's move!!! That's all guys for this week...hohohoho..until the next time thn..nite everyone!!


p/s: I missed the crazy hours in Pangkor..but certainly not alcohol...shit...3 consecutive days of hard liquor made my liver hard!!! touch wood!!!!!!!! choi choi choi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stubborness..

Looking at this topic..it makes me wonder how many wrong decisions I've taken so far..the mistakes were not costly but certainly it's torturing..well..a typical taurus always can't avoid the word 'stubborn'..
It's a nice thing that you have strong determination and the will to achieve something beyond your reach..but at the meantime..u must learn how to leave some capacity to yourself to accept third-party or second opinion..do not push yourself to the corner just because you think you're right...when you aren't..you might have your own reason but rmb that's not always right..
Take a look at me as a prime example..I believed I have announced my intention to leave long long long time ago..but now..my situation remains and nothing changes...why? Just solely a word..stubborn..
I always that with a degree of mine like such would definitely get a job in no time..however...my blog reveals it all..reality is always cruel my friends..my parents' friends advised me to take something that is related to HR..well my decision is to remain as it is..I have considered it but I told myself to stay where I am and not taking a step forward to any other ideas..one month..two months..and now approximately 7 months looking for jobs...i must wave the white flag..time for me to take U Turn..I hope it's not too late to make this decision..
It was hard at first when my mom lectured me..i feel kinda reluctant to accept what she said but when i calmed myself down..it's pretty reasonable...my nose could have been better if i had gone for the surgery before the commencement of my work..I would have changed my work if I had listened to them...
What done is done..I have made the decision to perform a big U Turn..most probably I'll be taking Masters..I planned to take that after few years but it seems it has to be brought forward..hopefully this time may god bless me everything goes smoothly for me..after that I'll be continuing my job hunting again...
Now my mind is much clearer..at least I'm trying to overcome one my fatal weaknesses..I need to open myself to other opinions...I'm already afraid to be that stubborn anymore..it makes you blind and you gotta go through helluva twist and turns before you realize you're wrong..
Always rmb...it's good to determine on something you believe..but try open to other opinions as well..advices are hard to be absorbed nevertheless it could benefit you in the long term..or even in your life..until the next time..hohohoho..sleepy after a can of beer...hohohoho..nite guys!

Flu

I intended to update a blog today but my flu doesn't allow me to...not sure when I'm going to have the chance as the flu might still be dragging for quite some time..shit...of all sicknesses I've been through flu is the only one I hate the most..it's just like a domino effect..with plenty more to come...pls...pls stop...I'm tired enough to take another wave of this....

Obsession..

This word is best to describe me lately...kinda say that I'm obsessed into something which I think I had the opportunity..
It happens that I had a two interview session at BASF..logically speaking...I thought I should have the chance to join them..well..that's if I have the chance though..been waiting for them more than one month..but the outcome is just disappointing...I never disappointed at the company..afterall they are the ones to decide who to hire...I'm just utterly disappointed over myself for over-expecting it...like the chinese old saying..the higher the expectation..the greater the disappointment..the only relief I have is that I had planned for the worst...and the heart to accept a bad result...
But anyway..I never intend to spend so much time on it because I believe I have to move on..the clock will not just stand still and wait for me to grab it..life still goes on and job hunting is still ongoing..though sometimes I'm tired mentally....I never gave up..I remind myself all the time the I must hang on..wait for the right opportunity and take it..well..I've been saying that for the last 6 months past..everyone has been asking the same thing..'wao..the last time i heard from you till now oso havent changed ur job a?'..the only answer I have is just this...it's never easy to have a job these days..you will have to put in your effort to find them instead of otherwise...until the day of revolution..I will not surrender myself to the current field!!!
My gosh...I wish to write more but my head is not listening to me..the alcohol is doing brilliantly stopping me from continue any further..but I guess the next update wouldn't take long..until next time then..good night everyone!!!